work life balance and whatnot

when people do realizes that i am currently doing both my master's and a full time job at the same time, they would ask me things like

are u not burnt out

dont u feel tired

how do u balance your time

i just wanna lay in bed everyday after im off work

isnt that too tiring to do those at once

i would always answer them with

man, im not the only one in the world who do what i do now. my classmates and 342380342 other people in the world probably have it worse than me. 

or sometimes even just a simple shrug

my job provides me the privilege to do 100% remote working and im beyond grateful for that so it's easier for me to manage the time. but i mean, i have always been this way. 

are u not burnt out? dont u feel tired? 

i do get tired but i dont oftenly feel burnt out. i mean, people has different ways and limitations when it comes to handling stresses and i think im one of those people who dont really get stressed out over things. and one of the key to handling it for me i think is to always keep my expectations low. dont get me wrong, i still try my best (as i have always said in probably every blog post ive ever made). but giving yourself expectations is like putting your OWN self on a great pressure. and i dont usually make my best outcome when it comes from pressure. right now im just trying to enjoy all these privileges while it lasts bc who tf knows when will all these be taken away from me

how do u balance your time? i just wanna lay in bed everyday after im off work

everytime i start questioning myself with that type of questions, i would always come back to: you never really know what you can do until you try it yourself. yes, i do think of that once i was faced with the choices that i made today but like what i said. i will never know if i didnt try. and it doesnt turn out so bad after all. ive managed both my study and my job pretty well so i think i kinda did it. still a long way to go though but it's a work in progress. 

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aaaaanyway. 

enough jibber jabber. im finally back. july to october is kinda a long break but i do have excuses. well, i just wrote u a whole ramble about it so i think you got it. 

life has been pretttyy damn tiring but yet satisfying. im so happy with myself and i feel like im actually doing something productive instead of just "empty" productivity. im actually earning and learning at the same time and that feels soooo good (and that also rhymes pretty well :p).

i do feel super tired tho but it's so much better than having nothing to do at all so im not complaining. also, i do realize now that i have 2 responsibilities so it's another time-management challenge for me but the weird thing is i feel like im still getting enough sleep and rest? i still have time to hang out with my friends and families? and the most important thing is that i still am happy. 

well, thats a good thing i guess. so that's a little life update. lol, this blog really sums up my life and my maturity development over the years it feels so weird looking back at old stuffs and reading my old rants over anything and actually seeing that im actually developing and growing as a person. 

ciao and see u next time!