life update

it's been quite a while since the last time i wrote so here we go.

lately ive been preoccupied with university and internship. good news is both are running well despite the fact that it's physically and mentally exhausting. kegiatan sehari2 gue bener2 biasanya dua laptop dengan kuliah dan kantor yaallah capek bgt tp gapapa sih, i was once more tired than this and it worked out just great so this might as well work out pretty great eventually. despite the fact that im stuck at home due to pandemic (yes, still, and still getting worse and worse each day. welome to indonesia everybody) things turned out GREAT these past few months. 

btw sekarang udah libur kuliah guys yeay, ga berasa sekali semester 1 gue sudah berlalu dengan segala perdramaan kelas barengan sama meeting atau mengerjakan pekerjaan kantor HAHA tp seru banget jujur kaya ada adrenaline rush tersendiri lol :) ohh terus gue jg mau pindah kelas guys smt depan. kan awal nya gue daftar kelas reguler karena gue mikir yaudahlah kayanya ga akan kerja jg dalam waktu dekat ini, palingan intern2 aja. jadi kelas reguler ya kelas nya kaya kuliah biasa, kaya senin-jumat dan pagi sampe sore gitu.

but then one day my internship supervisor texted me saying that im in the process of becoming a full-time employee

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i was processing for awhile, trs mikir kayak gimana nnt kuliah gue, kan gue kelasnya reguler terus gmn bagi waktu nya i dont think i will be able to do it but then gue baru inget kalau ada pilihan PINDAH KELAS. 

yaaudah gue langsung nanya dan ngurus ke kampus buat pindah kelas karyawan yang kelas nya malem gitu, tetep senin-jumat sih tapi malem so should be good for the schedules. man.. never did i thought i will be getting a job without even searching for one.... i mean.. 

yes, i landed my first actual job.

how does it feel if u ask

idk, it feels pretty unreal since i wasn't even expecting for one but boyyyyyyy isn't it EXCITINGGG. 

the thought of getting a job was all over my mind since mid-last year but with the new studying plan and continuing my degree i didnt think i would be getting an actual job this soon. 

kadang gue mikir juga sih kaya, do i deserve this? melihat kelakukan gue di kampus pas S1 kayanya BANYAK YA yang kayanya deserve this position more than i do. sometimes i look too down at myself that i underestimate myself a lot. 

but for real,

i guess the key to "finding your way" is to keep it as simple as you can, try your best, and let God do the rest. trust me, God is good and He will always give the best answer for all of your problems. might not be the same as you asked Him for, but He knows better than you do. might not be the best option for now, but maybe for later. i have stopped expecting anything for a while and it turned out really great. don't get me wrong, i still am trying my best for everything i've got in front of me and for what i want in life. but after a full day of trying and doing my very best, i let my prayers do the rest. i feel way more relieve than i have ever did in my life. i have been more grateful for every little things that has happened since, and it really releases my pain and stopping myself for giving me a hard time. 

anyway,

segitu lah sekira nya life update dan sedikit pouring out what have been stuck in my mind lately

bye bye sampe di episode selanjutnya 

dadah