my aiesec experience in a nutshell
for me aiesec is really about knowing your limit. you'll be pushed until your very last limit and then it somehow will tell you that you MUST stop.
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i have been in this organization for a few years now and this last experience is definitely my limit. i used to think that this organization was all fun and games until my worst dream hit me. im always bragging about my ability to engage and do personal approach to people to the point i realized, im actually SUCKS at that.
sumpah aiesec bener bener bikin gue pushed to my last point of limit and throw me down the hill. my first year in aiesec was REALLY fun. though there were some problems, my team and i were able to managed it pretty well and at the end of the term, it all ended nicely. everyone was happy. and i decided to continue my journey to the next level. my second year was pretty rough and there were some conflict within the internal of my team. i was doubting if i should continue my journey in the organization that was basically a place for me to run away from the "real reality". but oh well, the conflict wasn't that bad for me to decide to stop there. i did apply for another position that obviously have a higher responsibility.
this is where everything started to fall apart. this is where i got so skeptical about everything this organization once offered me.
striving for peace and fulfillment of humankind's potential
it's a huge-ass dream yet we believed in that. don't get me wrong, i still do. i know that by the power of youth, their potential, and their belief in the kindness of society, this kind of thing will eventually achieved and there will be no such thing as cultural barrier within different backgrounds.
but beside that
enabling young people to develop their leadership through practical experiences in challenging environments
this where i'll highlight my whole journey. i've always believed that you never really know your limit until you push yourself to do it. challenging environment is real. when you're in an environment where it keeps changing, keeps on adjusting, being agile is important. but agile isn't always enough. for me, emotion control is everything. i used to think that i'm very emotionally stable. the truth is, i wasn't emotionally stable. it just that i haven't really been in a situation where it reaches my limit to the point i wasn't able to control it.
the whole journey was fun as hell. and i mean it. if i had the option to rewind time and i'm able to choose whether to experience this or not, i would definitely won't change anything. it was hard, really hard. my inner-self was basically being pushed to the point where i finally breakdown and cry and i wasn't even able to control it. i would go to sleep at night, and wake up in the morning still feeling the exact same feeling i felt the night before. the pressure is real.
back to the topic, it's about knowing your limit. i also learn that this organization taught me to keep focus on your strengths, work on that. and get support for your weaknesses. this is a good point actually. and beside all of those countless crying nights and stressing out and doubting over your capability to manage things, those are all the best development i've had during my entire university life. if it wasn't because of aiesec, i wouldn't be the person i am now and i'm really grateful for who i am now. this organization really stresses you out at some point, but that's actually the good thing. you never know what you're capable of doing until you were pushed to your limit.
i love how it somehow shaped me to be who i am today. and that's where i stop. this is the point when i feel enough dealing with this organization regardless of how "nice" it actually is to be in it.
i'm not done though, i still have a few more days to go.
***
i have been in this organization for a few years now and this last experience is definitely my limit. i used to think that this organization was all fun and games until my worst dream hit me. im always bragging about my ability to engage and do personal approach to people to the point i realized, im actually SUCKS at that.
sumpah aiesec bener bener bikin gue pushed to my last point of limit and throw me down the hill. my first year in aiesec was REALLY fun. though there were some problems, my team and i were able to managed it pretty well and at the end of the term, it all ended nicely. everyone was happy. and i decided to continue my journey to the next level. my second year was pretty rough and there were some conflict within the internal of my team. i was doubting if i should continue my journey in the organization that was basically a place for me to run away from the "real reality". but oh well, the conflict wasn't that bad for me to decide to stop there. i did apply for another position that obviously have a higher responsibility.
this is where everything started to fall apart. this is where i got so skeptical about everything this organization once offered me.
striving for peace and fulfillment of humankind's potential
it's a huge-ass dream yet we believed in that. don't get me wrong, i still do. i know that by the power of youth, their potential, and their belief in the kindness of society, this kind of thing will eventually achieved and there will be no such thing as cultural barrier within different backgrounds.
but beside that
enabling young people to develop their leadership through practical experiences in challenging environments
this where i'll highlight my whole journey. i've always believed that you never really know your limit until you push yourself to do it. challenging environment is real. when you're in an environment where it keeps changing, keeps on adjusting, being agile is important. but agile isn't always enough. for me, emotion control is everything. i used to think that i'm very emotionally stable. the truth is, i wasn't emotionally stable. it just that i haven't really been in a situation where it reaches my limit to the point i wasn't able to control it.
the whole journey was fun as hell. and i mean it. if i had the option to rewind time and i'm able to choose whether to experience this or not, i would definitely won't change anything. it was hard, really hard. my inner-self was basically being pushed to the point where i finally breakdown and cry and i wasn't even able to control it. i would go to sleep at night, and wake up in the morning still feeling the exact same feeling i felt the night before. the pressure is real.
back to the topic, it's about knowing your limit. i also learn that this organization taught me to keep focus on your strengths, work on that. and get support for your weaknesses. this is a good point actually. and beside all of those countless crying nights and stressing out and doubting over your capability to manage things, those are all the best development i've had during my entire university life. if it wasn't because of aiesec, i wouldn't be the person i am now and i'm really grateful for who i am now. this organization really stresses you out at some point, but that's actually the good thing. you never know what you're capable of doing until you were pushed to your limit.
i love how it somehow shaped me to be who i am today. and that's where i stop. this is the point when i feel enough dealing with this organization regardless of how "nice" it actually is to be in it.
i'm not done though, i still have a few more days to go.
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