back again!

hi im back
loyla is back
tell a friend

"kok lama banget ga nulis loy padahal kemaren kemaren frekuensi nulis lo lagi banyak?"
these past few weeks have been a total disaster. exams week, try outs, remedials, et cetera

ditambah lagi keadaan gue yang lagi emang kacau segala macem ive been going through a mental break down these past few weeks and i think its better to not write for a while because kALO NULIS YANG KELUAR PASTI POST GALAU. i promised the other day that im not going to post anymore galau content to this blog because that's going to be caper as fuck

so i tried my best to get over that and now that i get over it, here i am. hello blogger. long time no see. ive missed you like crazy. happy and excited loyla is back.

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exams week emang bener bener nguras tenaga. i studied my ass off every single night and the results are not what i hope them to be. sakit banget gasih???

sekarang keadaan gue adalah di meja belajar, baru nyelesaiin nyalin remed kimia dan gue butuh pencerahan. terus gue buka buka blog temen temen gue yang ternyata mereka udah ngepost banyak juga dan belum sempet gue baca :'D

taugasih
ini oot
tapi, gue dapet pelajaran dari beberapa hari terakhir ini
"focus on what makes you happy"
"your happiness is depend on yourself"

dan yang terakhir

"decide every morning that you are in such a good mood"
yg bagian itu, gue bener bener ngelakuin dan hasil nya adalah :D :D :D :D :D. taugasih kalau kita tiap pagi decide that we are in a good mood itu bener bener ngebantu banget. i tried my best, it was hard at first considering i was in such stress. and then one day i went to school and listened to all my favorite songs through the whole journey. on the way, i started to enjoy the music then as soon as i got to school, my mood was like on 100% good.

kadang gue sampe sekolah secretly dancing di lorong. serius beneran. gue beneran nari nari. tapi kalau lagi ga ada yang liat ajasih. kalau ada yang liat gue lansung berenti terus ketawa-ketawa dalam hati mikirin "gila gue emang orang gila banget"

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tugas remed udah kelar semua
tinggal belajar buat remed matematika besok, ulangan ulang ((pusing banget ga sih??))
padahal besok try out kimia
jumat nya cbt biologi ((anjas cbt)) ((sekolah gue cbt nya gantian perkelas)) ((pusing banget ga sih??))
persetan dengan try out apa guna mending gue belajar buat remed
jaman sekarang sekolah bener bener nyari nilai doang
gua gatau gua dapet ilmu apa aja di sekolah

yaudah bai, intinya: i get over everything!:D