:(

when you love someone or even something too much it is hurt so much to loose them

i just lost a best friend yet also a family to me

it hurts so much, it feels like you lost a little part of yourself and theres nothing you can do about it

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it was 3am wednesday morning, august 12th 2015. ive accidently woken up by a noisy noise outside my bedroom. i thought there was a thief breaking through my house but suddenly my mom came out from her bedroom and cried. i have no idea what was going on until i opened my door and found megan (my cat) lying on the floor with no energy left. she lied there like she was dead but she actually hadnt yet. my mom cried, and so did i. my dad just sat there in silent.

megan was attacked by two wild dogs in my neighborhood.

i convinced my mom to get her to the animal hospital as soon as possible. i tried to ring the one in pasar minggu and tebet but none of both answered. at around 5 oclock when i was ready to go to school mom said we were gonna bring her to the one in cijantung which is near my school. so we took her there.

when we arrived, the doctor checked everything and she said like dont get hope too much dont expect too much etc i was so down yet also positive because she said she was gonna take her blood first to figure out what was wrong with her.

so then we left megan there then my mom and dad dropped me to school and they went to work.

in the afternoon, my mom recieved a call from the doctor said that she had done the blood test and the result should came on wednesday. but she said that megan has shown nothing better, theres no progress meanwhile she already got a bit of traitment. i was still thinking positive that this wouldnt be the end  of her.

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i didnt recieve any news until wednesday, august 13th 2015. it was around 11 in the morning i was in the middle of physics class but luckily there was no teacher. i checked my phone to see if anyone has text me or something. i was laughing with my friend until i saw my mom's message saying megan had already gone.

i ran to the bathroom and locked the door straight away. i couldnt contain my tears anymore it streamed down my cheeks. i didnt even know what i feel all i know was i was so ready to breakdown into pieces

megan, you'll be so much missed :(