why did i even started this blog?

when youre having too much thoughts on your mind and you feel like no one could ever understand it. plus im not that type of person yang bisa cerita gampang ke seseorang. it took me 3982402 hours to think apa gue perlu cerita ke orang apa ngga and it always turned out "no gue gaperlu cerita ke orang toh orang lain belum tentu peduli sama masalah gue"

have you ever been on that phase where youre so tired of everything
rasa nya tuh kayak lo capek sama semuanya
pengen bisa multitasking sebanyak mungkin
pengen semuanya selesai dalam waktu sekejap
pengen everything work the way it supposed to be
kalau lagi ngerasa kayak gitu biasanya ngapain sih?
nangis?
ive tried zillion and zillion of times but it didnt work
nangis ga ngebantu buat gue jadi lebih relieve
cerita sama orang?
it always makes me feel even worse
bahkan malah kadang bikin gue mikir "why did i tell them in the first place"
gue selalu nyesel tiap abis cerita ke orang
masalah emang.